I watched the streetlights flicker yesterday evening as the sun went down. It was my last day to be 30 years old. I remember last year so clearly. It was a beautiful snow day. And this year, ironically enough, it's going to snow again.
I don't know about you, but not too long ago there was a period in my life where it felt like nothing would ever change. In my later 20's it felt like life was stuck in one gear. An unchanging career. An unchanging schedule. An unchanging future. It was not a good feeling.
But it wasn't true. Life is always changing. Sometimes it moves fast, sometimes incredibly slow. But we're always moving forward. We're never cemented to a fixed point.
For the past few years I've had a verse pinned to the front of my computer.
"And the Lord shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought."
Some days that verse made sense. Other days it made me want to kick a hole in the wall. But it was true nevertheless. God satisfies us in the droughts. Because the droughts are where we find Him. And the droughts don't last forever.
After several years of praying and feeling rooted to one, unchanging spot, I turned 30. And then the earth seemed to tilt off its axis. I suddenly had more change than I could have ever imagined.
The BHG contest.
Rebecca left for China.
Rachel got married.
My father retired.
Matt started a fun side project.
But most importantly, we found out we were going to be parents.
And while I know other droughts lay ahead, and that there will once again be times where I feel the hum-drum, unchanging weight of life press down, I also know there are times when prayers get answered. When the sun shines down, warms our arms and reminds us that it won't always be winter. That God cares.
I will always remember my 30th year as the year God answered my prayer for change. And I'm very thankful to turn 31.