So how am I? Well, I find myself in a new reality. When you go from a totally independent, healthy, working person to, well, something different... it changes things. But you want to know something? I've started putting away my checklists. I've stopped trying to make everything work out. I've slowly started to learn to wait on the Lord.
When faced with the things I always feared, God is becoming a bigger, more ever-present figure in my days. I believe he wants good for me and not bad. I believe things will get better.
I came across this verse last night and it stopped me short.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
I've been on the receiving end of a lot of comfort lately. And when I read this, I realized God wanted me to pass on the comfort, so to speak. So if you're reading this, know that God sees you. He knows your name and the number of hairs on your head. He sees you at your computer right now, at work or at home in your pajamas. Whether you're happily sipping coffee or wiping your bleary sleep-deprived eyes. He knows about your job. He knows about the bills, or the diagnosis, or the fight. He has heard the longings of your heart that perhaps you haven't shared with another soul. He has heard you. He is as close as your next breath and He will never leave or forsake you. He has good planned for you and not bad. And if you, like me, are facing a seemingly insurmountable monster, sit back and wait on the Lord. He is never late. He never forgets. He will deliver you.
I love you all.